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youdon’tkpentfourhoursquarrellhephonefrom18:00tyesterdayafternoon,wequarreledseemrnedupsidedfinallyifelthungry,thirstyanddizzyd:“i’mhungry，iwillbuysomquarrelwithy”hesaid:“ok,justquick!”doyouthinkthatisthereaperquarrelswirslikeecouldquarrellired,blmethe.becauseididn’,kedmrongd:“idon’,ourisveryoldheniquarreledwithyrlivingroom,allthepeoplehisbuildldhearheyeveldhearicriisaidsomething,theywouldlaugheifiwe,ievendon’eat.”youfathersaid:“ysteat,oryllfeelunhealthy.soyys,ifsomebodylookedatyouforale,yldsaytheresomethrthlookhaven’tyrestofmid-court”ha-ha,bothofuslaugbuyer-melhenifinishedit,edtoquarrelwitbpbhedifferencebbadman,brsbadforlthlyeatmelfsupperht.

tillfeltdizzyandtiredwhepthismorning,itreallycrgyandphysicalstrengthtoquarrelwithsomebody.

yskhywequarreledlikethis,don’tyoubldyoufeelsborfldyyourfathermademeangryonpurpjusedeachmetoexpressmyhougrgumentshissfactyourfatherdidn’quarreljusrguewithme,blumsyofspeechrgueshardrgueverywell,justmakemecryloudly.

yesterday,fthequarrelisaidtirveasleep.becauseofthefour-hourtelephonecall,mytelepveryhot.yourfathersaidok,ludedmygrprogresshistimefirst,ngryandialsothrewmytelephone,butafterthinkb,ldcallbackequarrellsohekvfprecipythougrywords,andldalsotellsomebodymyophenveryangryformertimes,ialwayscouldn’tsayrdbutcryforseveralhoursatlcond,ihavealreadylearisplayargumedtalkingpoigrprogressfromthequarrelyesterday.mydefesthldmakethe&nbsppetitorfindandrolmyshoreasilyhepast.butyesterdayibelkandreply,andmoreoveribeswerbacksarcasticallyandmakrdsorderly.third,ldexpressmyoppletelyldn’texpressmyoplearlywhenngryandwrongedhepastlddhingbutcry.ndmyimporbreakthroughfinally,deagreatprogress!

ydgeforme,isthereanyquarrelswirslikeequarreledwithme,mademedizzy,bdeluslmademeshivermysoulfact,lkforoneorhourseveryday,butsincelasemybossdidn’tagreewithmyresyourfatherberestronglyethougilldidn’thaveenoughendurance,ldhavemoretrsafterihavethecapabilitytoprevirfideritealetterofresdleaveherej“kind-heart”bd.

ybeyllfeelverystrange.yourfathergentlepersrlife,butwhyhequarreledwithmverelysverysimpleinfyourfatherrengthere,kemedefrongstorside,hehelpedmerealizemyshorsandletmemakeabreakthroughveemydefedmakeprogress.

edidthisjustbecauseifehopesn’theredityforythatigryldn’tsayrd.doyoukhyyourmotherisalwaysverycalmthereisthereason,mygirl,infact,justbecauseikhisdefekfimetthiss,ialwayscouldn’tsayanythingkemyselfveryelcan’rolingymakeuslrol.whyrolourbehavioridon’tquarrelwirs,nevermakeothersangry,andforgppinessveryquickly,i’malwaysveryhappytoreceivethefh’rolmyself,andialwaysveryhappyjustlikellirealreasonisthknn’rolmyselfwheni’ryvetokeeplerant,tohidemyinsidedefidebehavior,ihopemy’tfollowthisdefe

yourfathersaidthatpricelessde,lgreatpotentiality,abluechippersonlikebole1,flpedmecarryyworthalready;but,heedismorerefinemlyhiswaymyinsbecarriedout,thereofsparkldcrystalofanemeraldheproblemisthstillstophelevelofbeingdiscovered,veforwardanymore,thatmppearanceofbottleneck.

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fact,sn’reasonablerequeshelpmerealizemydefeccorrecrary,it’sahappyandforpersoniswillhelpusselflesslygrowuprlife.bpersonslikeyourfather,dependhemselvestofindheirflaws,rpenthem,rrecrongestcharacterofpeople.

’mverythankfulthatmyhusbandlylovesmebutalsogivesmendylifbiggestgracegodgivesmlfriendhelpme.blwaysmakesmeangrymbarrassskemyselfeleeverytime,blwaysfail

yourfatherlikesmakeangry,hekllcrywhenngryandcan’tsayanyword,billargueswithmeonpurposekemeangryisfreelwayscrywithsmilrs.it’sreallyashamed.ifeelveryborhe.tellykfellinlove,weevenquarreleddayjustbecausediresriglur2,ngrythatlethimtreatmvesupper,tney.whyhemademeangryhe,wewereallre,billquarreledforfourhourshepreallyhasn’teverdecreasedpuzzled……heoftenkeepssilenceinfrfothers,whyhetalkativmeetsme.it’sreallystrange.

yhelpmeovefeclwayssays,whenikrolmyself,don’tbecbyotherpeople’spretence,don’tbehherpeople’strapof“fa3”don’tbehurtbyotherpeopleeasilyhistimeweareready,wewillneverafraidwhereverwehery’tlookforherjobfii’etready.i’mytobemoved,ytobetakenin,veyabilitytodefehersandprotectmyselffrksofotherpeople.becfectsarestillbeing,meistrueofallotherjobs,erwhpanyrkin,becrewillstillbemanypeopletobullymrtmlessstlearprotectmyselffromdanger.

strvesuchdefects,mygirl,’tbravetofacrunserfrankthougprightthingfr,ineverleavewithdifferenceyourfatherexpectsherary,llbereallyangryandtrymybesprevbadthingsfromhappeyourfatherbeliev……can’tchangesomething,sbetterforusvoidourselvesfrombevolved

vbilitytoexpressmybestwishes,mostplveryone’sheartaroundme,kefriendswitheveryone,tokeepeveryonercircletogetherhappily.buti’bletoprevrrrk.i’malwaysbewilderfaceotherpeople’smalevoleks.

’smyhabdgewhherssaykindformeorfirstly,llspentlehinkhreplyrswilltakethechancetodisturbmyheartandmyraltrack.justlikethistime,somebodyusedfletmewritealetterofresy&nbsppany,regardedmeaslent,permeleaveaspossiblyheyhelpedmeleave,ididn’tkswerthemalthoughithoughtoveritforalldthemthatressmybusiness,lddecideditbymyselfratherthherpeoplefact,yourfathersaidthatldfightbacke……ylikedspeakingvrdsinprivate,ldfighsfirmlyandpytheirarrblustersbetterkethemdeprfterrldthinkrwouldspeakrrtotherpeopleinprivyourfatherreferredydifferepicsryrebility,hemademistakesorcalledwhiteblackonpurpmademymindfacrldbeautifulandkindtobeacceptedbyme.hemademeprotectmythoughtsfrombeffecisturbed.

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ellykerefertolongl,yourfathergavemetrbythougreareonlybeautifulthingsyworld,hetoldmesomrds,oppositemyhabitofthinkheedkemehavesomererguewitbuteverytimeiithmycry

etime,yourfathertoldme:“whosay,ithinkssblack,imakesureofit……”

heniheardthis,ilookimforalewithribery.

yourfathermee,helaugid:“ionlysaice‘ssblackjus,whydoyoucryshouldn’tyouarguewithmefirstlybery”

prid:“everyonek,butyousaidsblack,ydemecryonpurpose.”

laughedforalid:“myfoolgirl!willbeblackifisaysblackyldinsistyourhouglsyouthink,llbewhite,erwhherpeoplesay,llhangethefhatyoubelieve.areyouclear”

strue,mychild,wemuststickrstandpoint,neverbedisturbedbyotherpeopleeasily.ifwehaveabilityis,wemustexercirrselves,wemlourselvvbilitiestobearsomethfact,nobodydestroyus,evghsomebodycondemnus,hurishonorus,welwaysdecirsdishonor.thepowerofdecidsstillrrdecisetobeangryrroworsjustourrekgryifweareangrywithsomebody.soifsomeoneprovokesus,pleaserememberyjustchallengeourjudgmeeverlrthlessthingsdisturbourminds.

beasparkldcrystalemerald!nobodyhideourlightsexceptourselves,tobeanemeraldrpbodyprevfrombebeautifulemeraldexcepgiveuprthinsideusbeanemeraliinsidearesame,nobodysesludgesubmergeourbeautifulrmeraldexceprewillbesubmergmy,whsayis……ystbelievyouareaspecialemerald,erwhherpeoplesay,erssblackwhiteorcolorfulldneverbedisturbedbycolorserwhherpeoplesay,lyistobelievethecolorwhreyillleadfortablelifeaslswearekigj,wemustbedeifwethinkwearpolish,wewellareabeautifulemeraldermustrememberce……whateverotherpeoplesay,i’malwaysanemerald,stkeepmyegloss.

hepase,derrnemerald,outsibsideisde,orjmellyiffisprockmealverydayigrieved……thankgod,myfamilygavemeinfinitelove,theyletmeremembermostvaluableemeraldheworld,thankgod,letmembestedrerwhatfailimeet,myteacheralwayssmilys:“i’er,neellbebetter.”nfurlilsofstruggledhankgod,letmehavbbyrkfitmeverywell,rkandliveveryhappily.idevotemyselfrk&nbsppletelyandrelove,praisemyselfbecauseidroppedmorebeautifulandkimoreconfidenceformyself,thankgod,letmehadbandpportedmverfeelboredwithmytearverabandonmghpatienclpmereceivrpenmylifppearedgraduallythatmyinsiparklingemeraldwibindp.

ederrshouldveupingsfirmropmyselfheso-callideworldkemedon’tseparatewiideenvironment.becbeconsideredentalpatiesmybiggestsorrhisextremeshortageofmaterialandspiritofthetime,ldadvocatelovrry,keribrryasourideal,tobuildourfresponsibilitygrgumentsletmebirdofthesystemandmentalpatier&nbsppanyatleastfiveyears.

ytimesedveupmyconfirmedichangedmyselfwivironmebeacynicalpersondresentmedderideofthisworldinth,idsomeprofrdslikeothersdid.myfamilychersalwaysgavemecritndadvicewheverymademebelievethatlwaysme,rpeople’sthingrstandmlythlldomyselfbetter.

,derstandmytruthafterthefailureofduelhua4.ikyworth,khatstrengcapacityihav,khatligrgyexert,khribkeforoursociety,ourryrhbeingreenoughformeelkformyideas.ifthereisherperssunderstandmeandlaughejustbecausemyconformedidealandmyloveforeverypeoplearoundme,andevensaythati’entalpatient,llneverdefxplfi’marealpersonlikethis,theirjudgmvedevbymisundervercarrtheywillmakebstakeheirrestoflivesleastilivehappilyyidealkingdyworkbbygeetherverywellandi’mveryhappyreenoughformebhers’misunderstand’mstillme,andistillhavemylifrpeople’swordswillneverdisturbmyirt,becauselltrymybesbedenbecarved,beanemeraldnbesubmergedbysludgefact,&nbspparedwirlpfrommycolleagcustomers,somebody’swordscan’tdenymyre.thereiseedformetoregarrdn’taffectmyrettersprovrethefinalershavrconfirmedideal.

laughwhehinkthespeechbmycolleagmetoday.doyouknow,mygirltheythinkthatmypi’madiligedhardoperlbackbone,abrandformy&nbsppany,abrandlleagghtnlymyworkly,otherthingsdon’tse.forexample,electryneediqandcapacity,it’ssofunny.

dayifficesofotherpeople,herkhotherputeropeseemplaysuspendedgame.therroandrnbesidedneverplayedgamididn’tkntoplaytddresearchthegamewhiletheywerebusyworkddidn’eme.